And yes, I will be. After I graduate on October, I'll be leaving all my burden and responsibility to those who will rule Dramatic Guild after the Entredicho era. I've already spent almost three years joining its major productions, assigned as a sound designer, a runner, a director, a scorer, a stage manager, etc. YES!!! I just can't wait to relax and do all the shit I want before I seek a permanent job, or something that I can live with!
But... Is this true? Am I really leaving?
Well, to compare myself from the present to the past, I've changed a lot. I am not the one you used to know, not the that person who just sit and relax and wait for someone to do his assignment for him, not the one that who has so much pride and forget people's name. I've turned into a better man. I now know how to be tired because of all the works I had to do, not to wait for someone to do it but to be the first one to do it. I am the one that always says "YES" to every person that asks favors. I became more of a servant for all. If one thing that hasn't changed in me, that is my leadership skills. I believe that before being a leader, one should learn how to be a slave for the other man, for God. And thanks to this philosophy, I know I can deal with my everyday problems.
But... Is this true? Am I really leaving?
I'll surely miss those times when I needed to wake up early for a Dress-Technical Rehearsal or an event that needs preparations on morning. Also those times that I need to carry heavy stuff and bring that shit from point A to point B. To print tarp or xerox paper stuffs that Sir Jef-Henson Dee(who is my mentor). And also I'll surely miss the time where I have to ask something for the second time and then Sir Dee will be like, "Uulitin ko ulit, ipaprint mo tong harap, 3 pages. Tsaka tong page 2 at 4, short nalang. Naiintindihan mo na? Uulitin ko pa?". Although it gives me a little downer to know I'm slow in understanding tasks, but what I learned from that was it is better to ask 300 times just to understand the task given, than to do it wrong. That's why my classmated tease me to our Stage Management lesson: There are no dumb questions, only dumb people, and Joy used to say that shit to me a thousand times. But I know to myself that I should to take as a joke. Otherwise, I'll be a prick because I got "pikon" first. HAHA! No hard feelings, Joy!
Oh, and of course, how could I forget my DG Friends, DG Core. I'm going to miss BMO, that's for sure. A lot of things happened in there; rehearsal, open forums, Rica's loud and angry voice when his dancing dudes aren't listening to her or someone is getting noisy, Noah's very optimistic and laugh aura, etc. We all became closer to each other as happy or sad things happens in that place. At the end, we all just laugh it out and drink, yeah, we're still friends at the end of the day. Oh, Sir CJ of course! My mentor at Basic Acting class and Directing class, who always tease me that I should move on to Monique whenever he sees me. HAHA! ALWAYS!!! And yeah, Monique, who used to be my best buddy and really taught me well on how to live life accordance to God's will. Even when we're still together, she taught me a lot things about religious philosophies. *Sigh, I kinda regret courting her, 'cause I really missed our friendship, a lot, along with Joena, who gave me a turning point in my life, and has always been there to enlighten and guide me through when I get depressed and stressed with my works and responsibility. And also my Performing Arts class, who has been with me and helped me through out the years. In short, I LOVE YOU ALL, DG DUDES!!! I THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!! (As if I'm going to die tomorrow?)
But... Is this true? Am I really leaving?
Until one thing crossed my mind, I asked myself where am I going after I leave school and DG? What will my everyday life be like after I graduated at October? Am I really leaving soon? Am I?
My answer is NO!!!
I may be far away from BMO, from my DG friends, but spiritually I am always there for them, in every activity, problems, and event they will have. Yes, I am graduating soon, but it doesn't mean I am leaving DG and all my PA dudes for good. I just can't imagine how my life will be without them, DG, Performing Arts classmates, Sir CJ, Sir Dee. I WILL NEVER LEAVE!!!
I WILL NEVER LEAVE!!! I'm just signing off for now...
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